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[vntrgirl]

Hi...I was posting to introduce myself when i realized what motivation I need.
For so long I have always been that girl who takes it...gets pushed aside...gets dismissed as over emotional, demanding...I can still hear echos of you talk to much....or you'd make a good lawyer...or maybe the one thing i'm afraid of..you're just like your mother(not in a good way). I am so afraid that, well.......what if I lose all this weight that is holding me back but turns out not to be the weight that's holding me back? I find myself saying over and over why don't I just deserved to be loved? Why can't I be strong? I see all these great things happening to people who are mean and deceptive and I get nothing. And then like that doesn't make me feel bad enough I have to yell at myself for feeling like i'm entitled to get something handed to me. It's like this everyday. It's to the point where it hurts me to read others telling strangers that they are worth something because I so desperately want to be told I am worth something. Which through my tear covered face and runny nose brings me back to my first sentense...I need to know I am worth something. Why is that so hard to learn? Why does it hurt? It's a simple declaration...I am worth something. It just doesn't feel true..or right..it's more...it doesn't even feel like a possablility. But I pick up my head and dismiss the feeling and move on. Trouble is now that I have a new husband and all new responsibility it becomes more appearant that I can't even think about raising children by teaching them to repress things and I just, well....if I ever had a daughter who felt this way about herself, I would never forgive myself. Well now that we all know that I tend to ramble and you probably think I'm a little crazy (although I promise i'm not) we have a breakthrough in changing my self esteem (i hope) and maybe a healthier life and a happier life. Funny I joined because I want to lose weight so i can feel strong and be thin and feel sexy and be taken seriously, a confident lady. to my surprise i think i'm afraid to be her...
well on the business end i was hoping someone could share some point of view on metabolic typing that didn't stem from Dr. mercola. It seems like I could help portion my plates better(simpler) if my body truely did react differently because of or some form of metabolic typing.
I need help and I don't have anyone close to me that i can count on...so i'm here. It's nice to meet you.

[Chrisydj]

WOW, welcome to the site. We are all here to help, provide support and any information that we are able. Sounds like you have some issues that you need to work through. I remember feeling the same way you do now. I did some serious soul searching and it took me a few years but I did eventualy come to the realization that I am worthy of being loved and I deserve to be happy. You might consider talking to a Therapist. Or if you cant afford one and dont have anyone to just listen, which is all it took for me(having a friend to just listen to me ramble), you can always ramble to me. And remember you have a NEW HUSBAND so obviously he thinks you are worthy loving and sees something important and special about you. Dont give up hope.

[vntrgirl]

:-) haha I guess I had been holding it in for a bit too long
Thank you so much for replying. It's nice to know I'm not the only one who feels/felt this way. ya know i did try to talk to a therapist when i was a teenager but it just didn't work out and i quit going, then again about a year ago and if we are going to be honest I quit going there too because i missed an appointment and she never called to see if i was okay and i acted like that teenager again and I never went back. It really bothered me that yet again someone who should be interested in my well being wasn't and I was too afraid to call her and confront her or tell her why I never showed up.
Ya know I think I like being able to post my thoughts and feelings it kinda helps me see my behavior for what it is and not what I think it is.
I will never lose hope and I will always move forward...thanks so much chrisydj for helping me feel connected today. :-) You keep moving forward too :-D

[Chrisydj]

So, other than working through your emotional issues, what are you planning on doing to lose weight?

[Obesity Discussion]

Originally Posted by vntrgirl

I am so afraid that, well.......what if I lose all this weight that is holding me back but turns out not to be the weight that's holding me back?

Only one way to find out! Better to be wrong than always wonder and never know.

Originally Posted by vntrgirl

I find myself saying over and over why don't I just deserved to be loved?

You need to learn to love yourself first...once you do you'll notice that others will love you even more.

Originally Posted by vntrgirl

Why can't I be strong? I see all these great things happening to people who are mean and deceptive and I get nothing. And then like that doesn't make me feel bad enough I have to yell at myself for feeling like i'm entitled to get something handed to me. It's like this everyday.

I've always gone out and gotten what I wanted....waiting around for it never works....if it did everyone would win the lottery.

Originally Posted by vntrgirl

It's to the point where it hurts me to read others telling strangers that they are worth something because I so desperately want to be told I am worth something.

You are absolutely worth something, you know you are and others do as well, you're just having a tough time being happy with yourself.

Originally Posted by vntrgirl

Funny I joined because I want to lose weight so i can feel strong and be thin and feel sexy and be taken seriously, a confident lady. to my surprise i think i'm afraid to be her...

Again, only one way to find out! Let's get you there.

Originally Posted by vntrgirl

I need help and I don't have anyone close to me that i can count on...so i'm here. It's nice to meet you.

That's what we're here for! We can tell you exactly what you need to do in order to lose the weight you so desperately want to shed. All you need is to commit yourself to doing this, stay positive, and give us a little information to help you along the way. We can help you by showing you how to count calories, and lose weight the natural way through healthy eating and exercise. Let us know if you're interested.