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[heidrun]

Wow these last days have been such a roller coaster ride to say the least. If I tell you the long version I would have to write until next week so here is the short version. I decided to end my relationship with my partner, and then I went crazy. I have been on very strong mental medication for the last 6 years, and they are the biggest factor in my weight gain. As you know that have read my blog, then I have had ISSUES, no reason to hide that, and I have always known that I had to deal with them one way or the other, but I have been to damn scared to myself and everyone else to do anything about it. So I have just been eating pills and more pills and then some more the same way as I have been eating the food, and just not facing the facts and deal with them.

Something had to give, and it BROKE 5 days ago. Well I did everything I wanted to do. I quit taking ALL my medications, I started to smoke again, I went on a drunk and dope binge, slept with the wrong guy……. you’ll get the long version later…. The strange thing is that everything that went wrong went wrong in the right way. As I had to experience all this madness to get whole again. Well now it seems that I have started to get my shit together, and the best part of course is that I lost 13 lbs in 5 days. I guess not sleeping, not eating, screaming at people, attacking people physically that really needed it. Luckily it was no one that I had any relationship with, just a person that attacked me and got all my rage and anger summed up in very intense 2 minutes until someone pulled me with great effort away, TWICE, WOW I have never ever been so angry in my life!!!!!!!, but damn it was good. The funny thing is that I am not even a violent person, but I sure needed that, and frankly I have never seen a person that was so violent to me get scared so fast… And frankly I can understand why….

I guess I need to put some physical activity to me diet… LOL…. I think it is so much better just go out running or something then to beat people up… and maybe I needed to beat people up to realize that I need to go out running… Get it out of my system… I am realizing things as I write, that’s the great part of writing things…. And the only reason why I write… and yes of course I enjoy the enjoyment other people have of my writing… Yes I am proud of myself and the thing is that I have a reason to be proud of me… Not because I got silicon implants to feel better about myself, like so many people do, but because I feel so proud of myself in my heart and I don’t need to buy anything or to please anyone or to fu… anyone to feel good about myself.

Isn’t life wonderful!! 

[Obesity Discussion]

Originally Posted by heidrun

Wow these last days have been such a roller coaster ride to say the least. If I tell you the long version I would have to write until next week so here is the short version. I decided to end my relationship with my partner, and then I went crazy. I have been on very strong mental medication for the last 6 years, and they are the biggest factor in my weight gain. As you know that have read my blog, then I have had ISSUES, no reason to hide that, and I have always known that I had to deal with them one way or the other, but I have been to damn scared to myself and everyone else to do anything about it. So I have just been eating pills and more pills and then some more the same way as I have been eating the food, and just not facing the facts and deal with them.

Something had to give, and it BROKE 5 days ago. Well I did everything I wanted to do. I quit taking ALL my medications, I started to smoke again, I went on a drunk and dope binge, slept with the wrong guy……. you’ll get the long version later…. The strange thing is that everything that went wrong went wrong in the right way. As I had to experience all this madness to get whole again. Well now it seems that I have started to get my poopy together, and the best part of course is that I lost 13 lbs in 5 days. I guess not sleeping, not eating, screaming at people, attacking people physically that really needed it. Luckily it was no one that I had any relationship with, just a person that attacked me and got all my rage and anger summed up in very intense 2 minutes until someone pulled me with great effort away, TWICE, WOW I have never ever been so angry in my life!!!!!!!, but damn it was good. The funny thing is that I am not even a violent person, but I sure needed that, and frankly I have never seen a person that was so violent to me get scared so fast… And frankly I can understand why….

I guess I need to put some physical activity to me diet… LOL…. I think it is so much better just go out running or something then to beat people up… and maybe I needed to beat people up to realize that I need to go out running… Get it out of my system… I am realizing things as I write, that’s the great part of writing things…. And the only reason why I write… and yes of course I enjoy the enjoyment other people have of my writing… Yes I am proud of myself and the thing is that I have a reason to be proud of me… Not because I got silicon implants to feel better about myself, like so many people do, but because I feel so proud of myself in my heart and I don’t need to buy anything or to please anyone or to fu… anyone to feel good about myself.

Isn’t life wonderful!! 

Minus the sex, drugs and rock and roll it sounds like you're on the right path! :razz:

Sounds like getting rid of some of the bad things in your life which has lifted a huge burden off of you! All this crazy partying and you've lost 13lbs! You're living everyone's dream! I hope all these new changes in your life work for the best! I can't wait to hear the long version :eek4:

I wonder if the smoking has worked as an appetite suppressant in some way?

Remind me never to make you mad

[heidrun]

Well I am still listening to the rock n´roll, as you would know by now, I am not the Britney Spears type.... wned:

Thanks for telling me this. Now I am making a "burn" list called "the soundtrack of last 5 days" to listen in my car when I go pick up my longtime friend called siggi punk. He has been sober for 10 years (AA guy), is a punker and works at the emergency room in ReykjavÃ*k as a registered nurse. He just got out of a night shift after the BIGGEST festival for the whole year in ReykjavÃ*k, called "culture night". That means basically that no other weekend are more Icelanders drunk or doped, and believe they are no baileys sipping britney spears fan. Its the viking blood I guess, but Icelandic people in Iceland get sooooo drunk and CRAZY... and when you add some foreign drugs to it... well it doesnt improve things... Now its time for him to talk to me, and I guess this weekend at the emergency room makes him ready for whatever. As I say, isnt life GREAT!!!!!

And one joke to top it off. If its to picturesque just delete it:
In Guantanamo muslims are forced to eat pork, drink alchohol and practise perverted sexual acts.... In Iceland we call it "culture night".....

The thing is that no joke is funny without being sad... think about it.

[Obesity Discussion]

Originally Posted by heidrun

Well I am still listening to the rock n´roll, as you would know by now, I am not the Britney Spears type.... wned:

Thanks for telling me this. Now I am making a "burn" list called "the soundtrack of last 5 days" to listen in my car when I go pick up my longtime friend called siggi punk. He has been sober for 10 years (AA guy), is a punker and works at the emergency room in ReykjavÃ*k as a registered nurse. He just got out of a night shift after the BIGGEST festival for the whole year in ReykjavÃ*k, called "culture night". That means basically that no other weekend are more Icelanders drunk or doped, and believe they are no baileys sipping britney spears fan. Its the viking blood I guess, but Icelandic people in Iceland get sooooo drunk and CRAZY... and when you add some foreign drugs to it... well it doesnt improve things... Now its time for him to talk to me, and I guess this weekend at the emergency room makes him ready for whatever. As I say, isnt life GREAT!!!!!

And one joke to top it off. If its to picturesque just delete it:
In Guantanamo muslims are forced to eat pork, drink alchohol and practise perverted sexual acts.... In Iceland we call it "culture night".....

The thing is that no joke is funny without being sad... think about it.

How does one go about getting the name siggi punk? Did you end up going to culture night? Sounds like a blast! Where was my invite

So what to you two have planned? How long does this culture night go far and where did it come from? I'm curious to hear more about this.....that is if you're not too hungover to type :razz:

[heidrun]

The culture night is over!!!!! You have to come next year
Besides 50 000 drunk Icelanders and me at the time.... Not a good idea Glad I didnt go, no I was occupied with the sex, drugs and rock n´roll part at my house. No there are no pics, fortunantly. I am not even telling you what went on. I mean I am a soccer-mom without the kids and this is online, god damn it....
No I am not hungover, have been sober for 5 days :razz:

I went to an AA-meeting yesterday. I was going to an OA-meeting this evening, but having lost 90 lbs in 8 monts, I thought I had figured out the food thing. I cooked myself lobster with some awesome pasta and vegatable thingy, and you know what... I ate untill I felt full, and I was full the first time in my life!!! The same as I thought with the drugs and alchohol... I dont have to dope or drink, it feels so much better to be angry
you know my email if you want my story, plus I am looking for a rebound guy nr. 43, ARE YOU THE ONE

[Irving]

Originally Posted by heidrun

So I have just been eating pills and more pills and then some more the same way as I have been eating the food, and just not facing the facts and deal with them.

Exactly what types of pills are you referring to (if you do not mind me asking).

Originally Posted by heidrun

I guess not sleeping, not eating, screaming at people, attacking people physically that really needed it. Luckily it was no one that I had any relationship with, just a person that attacked me and got all my rage and anger summed up in very intense 2 minutes until someone pulled me with great effort away, TWICE, WOW I have never ever been so angry in my life!!!!!!!, but damn it was good. The funny thing is that I am not even a violent person, but I sure needed that, and frankly I have never seen a person that was so violent to me get scared so fast… And frankly I can understand why….I guess I need to put some physical activity to me diet… LOL…. I think it is so much better just go out running or something then to beat people up… and maybe I needed to beat people up to realize that I need to go out running… Get it out of my system…

Have you tried something to take frustrations out, like weightlifting or boxing? I think we could have the next champion on our hands!

[heidrun]

Thanks for that great advice. I was thinking about what kind of physical activity I should do. I am not the walk on the beach type or jogger type as you have noticed, and boxing should be a good thing, specially when I need to punch someone.... It wont hurt so much having the gloves on beating up a punching bad specially if I dress it in a suit and tie

Well its either that or getting the best sex of my life, and there are a lot of pinkies around in Iceland and it seems that every rebound guy I try on or f... turns out to be a homosexual, dont know if its me or them, I guess its them So untill I find the right d... or guy or whatever you prefer to call them, I need to box I doubt that a normal guy can handle me frankly... but if I can punch a little then I will tone down physically and mentally.

I am even extremely strong physically... I have worked as a construction worker, as a fisherman. Another great story. I went on a ship that catched monkfish with nets. For those that havent been fishermen in Iceland then nets are the most hard physical fishing method around. We had nets, each around 100 metres long, and there were 20-80 such nets tied together, so it took us arund 4-5 hours to pull one up, and when you are pulling you work non-stop, if you have to pee, you hold it, if you want to smoke you smoke working, if you have to vomit because of seasickness, like I did for the first days you do it while you work. You have to take the fish out of the net, all tangled up, you have take care it is not tangled, you have to use hammers to break the coral out of it constantly, plus kill the monkfish, cut it up etc. the smallest ones were 5 lbs and the biggest we got was over 120 lbs. The are always alive when they come from the nets, and those fuckers bite you, snap at you like a crocodile. If they bite you, they close their mouth on your hand and you need a big club to force the mouth open. Fortunantly they have very short but extremely sharp teeths, so you dont get cut a lot just badely bruised. That doesnt matter you work and work and work, as long as you have your arms attached. We were working 6 hours, rest 6 hours, work 6 hours, rest 6 hours 24/7 for 14 whole days. Plus all this you have to keep your balance because the boat is rolling and we are not on the fucking meditearean sea but near the north pole. Its like battling crocodiles in a washing machine, except there is no soap and you are not clean after your shift.



And I did this on tranquilizers and around 300 lbs (I am 5´5) and I am a WOMAN... So TYSON here I come, and I wear my tattoos on the inside... except the thors hammer on my upper arm I will show you pics when I get my Freyja tattoo.



And the medicine I was on was Zyprexa, Cipralex, Seroquel, plus the doctors put me on thyroid medication and took me off zyprexa and seroquel and put me on orfiril (used for seizures, I had to eat 8 tablets a day, druiled in my sofa for few days then threw them in the garbage and went mad, better then druiling in the sofa!!!)

[William Wallace]

Originally Posted by heidrun

Thanks for that great advice. I was thinking about what kind of physical activity I should do. I am not the walk on the beach type or jogger type as you have noticed, and boxing should be a good thing, specially when I need to punch someone.... It wont hurt so much having the gloves on beating up a punching bad specially if I dress it in a suit and tie

Hey, I wear a suit and tie!

Originally Posted by heidrun

Well its either that or getting the best sex of my life, and there are a lot of pinkies around in Iceland and it seems that every rebound guy I try on or f... turns out to be a homosexual, dont know if its me or them, I guess its them

Sounds like it's them to me! Maybe the cold makes everything shrivel up, or like the sun in Iceland they're only up part of the year ?

Originally Posted by heidrun

So untill I find the right d... or guy or whatever you prefer to call them, I need to box I doubt that a normal guy can handle me frankly... but if I can punch a little then I will tone down physically and mentally.

Man would I hate to be a boyfriend that angered you :eek4:

Originally Posted by heidrun

I am even extremely strong physically... I have worked as a construction worker, as a fisherman. Another great story. I went on a ship that catched monkfish with nets. For those that havent been fishermen in Iceland then nets are the most hard physical fishing method around. We had nets, each around 100 metres long, and there were 20-80 such nets tied together, so it took us arund 4-5 hours to pull one up, and when you are pulling you work non-stop, if you have to pee, you hold it, if you want to smoke you smoke working, if you have to vomit because of seasickness, like I did for the first days you do it while you work. You have to take the fish out of the net, all tangled up, you have take care it is not tangled, you have to use hammers to break the coral out of it constantly, plus kill the monkfish, cut it up etc. the smallest ones were 5 lbs and the biggest we got was over 120 lbs. The are always alive when they come from the nets, and those fuckers bite you, snap at you like a crocodile. If they bite you, they close their mouth on your hand and you need a big club to force the mouth open. Fortunantly they have very short but extremely sharp teeths, so you dont get cut a lot just badely bruised. That doesnt matter you work and work and work, as long as you have your arms attached. We were working 6 hours, rest 6 hours, work 6 hours, rest 6 hours 24/7 for 14 whole days. Plus all this you have to keep your balance because the boat is rolling and we are not on the fucking meditearean sea but near the north pole. Its like battling crocodiles in a washing machine, except there is no soap and you are not clean after your shift. .

I'm trying really hard to envision fighting a croc in a washer Your job sounds like it may have had a part in toughening you up so much that maybe all the men are intimidated :eek4:

Originally Posted by heidrun

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How did you get this picture of my mother-in-law?

Originally Posted by heidrun

And I did this on tranquilizers and around 300 lbs (I am 5´5) and I am a WOMAN... So TYSON here I come, and I wear my tattoos on the inside... except the thors hammer on my upper arm I will show you pics when I get my Freyja tattoo.



And the medicine I was on was Zyprexa, Cipralex, Seroquel, plus the doctors put me on thyroid medication and took me off zyprexa and seroquel and put me on orfiril (used for seizures, I had to eat 8 tablets a day, druiled in my sofa for few days then threw them in the garbage and went mad, better then druiling in the sofa!!!)

My money is on you against Tyson!

[heidrun]

No wonder I havent had an Icelandic men in my life, except for lousy sexual experiences. "is it in yet" is a technical question, not putting the men down in any way, if you have a pinkie you have a pinkie, but if you are putting your pinkie in the exhaustion pipe of your range rover car in a red corselet with the works, and taking a picture of you, sending it to your online "girlfriend" that gets published in an Icelandic paper, because your "girlfriend" were some evil drunk Icelandic women/men/bored housewifes.... Then you have a problem.

Lets say it that instead having everything BEEEEEPED in Iceland, we rely on the internal beeeeper in the bored unsatisfied housewifes minds.... Besides a joke is a joke.. and a guy with a pinkie in an exhaustion pipe of the car is ALWAYS funny. Just so you know it I cut out the picture out of the paper and it is hangs on my computer paper.... Its my pinkie alert.. Everytime I need a pinkie I just look at the picture....

The fisherman experience isnt my only experience with hard work. I have worked hard all my life. At 11 years old I could lift a 75 lbs bag with no problem... I doubt I can still do it, I am getting old

I know its important to exercise, but I am still in this mentality.. My grandfather (born in 1901, died 1999) simply couldnt understand why people worked out... He said "why dont they work!!!"... And this comes from a guy that replied when I asked him what he liked most about christmas when he was little "not being hungry when I went to sleep".... I mean I have the right being big boned and fat... The Icelandic people were starving for 1000 years, so when the descent of the people that survived all the starvation suddenly gets food... Of course I get fat... I was carrying the hunger of all my ancestors in my stomach.

So its either getting my butt to some good sex, boxing or getting back to sea I really dont want some "creamcakemuscle" like I call the muscle guys that work out. I mean getting muscle with the same motion you use to eat a snicker bar... It cant be good.

I have an AU-pair now. It is a very nice german girl called SARA. I am hoping to pick some nice italian guy up on the airport.. At least they dont have pinkies and they are sexually starving. I lived there for one year (in Torino), and I "saved" a lot of guys from sexual frustration, and most of them were amazing.. sexually.

Now I have toned up my legs at least being 400+ lbs, and cleaning, cooking and moving furniture is also good for you. Besides who knows a girl 400+ lbs filled up with tranquilizers, with legs that ache like you are walking on glass, working full time in a pet shop.

[Obesity Discussion]

Originally Posted by heidrun

No wonder I havent had an Icelandic men in my life, except for lousy sexual experiences. "is it in yet" is a technical question, not putting the men down in any way, if you have a pinkie you have a pinkie, but if you are putting your pinkie in the exhaustion pipe of your range rover car in a red corselet with the works, and taking a picture of you, sending it to your online "girlfriend" that gets published in an Icelandic paper, because your "girlfriend" were some evil drunk Icelandic women/men/bored housewifes.... Then you have a problem.

That's an interesting analogy, I'll have to remember that one!

Originally Posted by heidrun

Lets say it that instead having everything BEEEEEPED in Iceland, we rely on the internal beeeeper in the bored unsatisfied housewifes minds.... Besides a joke is a joke.. and a guy with a pinkie in an exhaustion pipe of the car is ALWAYS funny. Just so you know it I cut out the picture out of the paper and it is hangs on my computer paper.... Its my pinkie alert.. Everytime I need a pinkie I just look at the picture....

Originally Posted by heidrun

The fisherman experience isnt my only experience with hard work. I have worked hard all my life. At 11 years old I could lift a 75 lbs bag with no problem... I doubt I can still do it, I am getting old

75lbs at 11 years old? :eek4: Amazing. How did you avoid getting a hernia lifting so much weight at such a young age. What were you doing at age 11 that required you to lift so much?

Originally Posted by heidrun

I know its important to exercise, but I am still in this mentality.. My grandfather (born in 1901, died 1999) simply couldnt understand why people worked out... He said "why dont they work!!!"... And this comes from a guy that replied when I asked him what he liked most about christmas when he was little "not being hungry when I went to sleep".... I mean I have the right being big boned and fat... The Icelandic people were starving for 1000 years, so when the descent of the people that survived all the starvation suddenly gets food... Of course I get fat... I was carrying the hunger of all my ancestors in my stomach.

Well, times have changed a bit; you're grandfather's line of thinking is fairly antiquated, and applies to a very different time. This isn't grandpa's era and food is a plenty. Food is so processed and unhealthy compared to years ago as well. So with unhealthier food and more of it available, well, you know......

Originally Posted by heidrun

So its either getting my butt to some good sex, boxing or getting back to sea I really dont want some "creamcakemuscle" like I call the muscle guys that work out. I mean getting muscle with the same motion you use to eat a snicker bar... It cant be good.

Wait a minute, I lift weights! :redface:

Originally Posted by heidrun

I have an AU-pair now. It is a very nice german girl called SARA. I am hoping to pick some nice italian guy up on the airport.. At least they dont have pinkies and they are sexually starving. I lived there for one year (in Torino), and I "saved" a lot of guys from sexual frustration, and most of them were amazing.. sexually.

So if it's Italians you want, I think you need to plan a vacation to Italy! Quit posting and pack your bags

[heidrun]

Originally Posted by heidrun

Lets say it that instead having everything BEEEEEPED in Iceland, we rely on the internal beeeeper in the bored unsatisfied housewifes minds.... Besides a joke is a joke.. and a guy with a pinkie in an exhaustion pipe of the car is ALWAYS funny. Just so you know it I cut out the picture out of the paper and it is hangs on my computer paper.... Its my pinkie alert.. Everytime I need a pinkie I just look at the picture....

Five words
Just type "inserting dick in an exhaustion pipe" and choose images.... Enjoy

Originally Posted by heidrun

The fisherman experience isnt my only experience with hard work. I have worked hard all my life. At 11 years old I could lift a 75 lbs bag with no problem... I doubt I can still do it, I am getting old

75lbs at 11 years old? :eek4: Amazing. How did you avoid getting a hernia lifting so much weight at such a young age. What were you doing at age 11 that required you to lift so much?

I come from a farm... The fertilizer and the feed bags weighed 75 lbs (and most of the times they were heavier then that, because they were moist because of the rain). I didnt get hernia because... Well I am an Icelandic troll woman and troll women dont get hernia
I worked with my grandfather at his farm (I lived few metres from them) from the time I could work.. That means when I could walk on my feet.

Originally Posted by heidrun

I know its important to exercise, but I am still in this mentality.. My grandfather (born in 1901, died 1999) simply couldnt understand why people worked out... He said "why dont they work!!!"... And this comes from a guy that replied when I asked him what he liked most about christmas when he was little "not being hungry when I went to sleep".... I mean I have the right being big boned and fat... The Icelandic people were starving for 1000 years, so when the descent of the people that survived all the starvation suddenly gets food... Of course I get fat... I was carrying the hunger of all my ancestors in my stomach.

Well, times have changed a bit; you're grandfather's line of thinking is fairly antiquated, and applies to a very different time. This isn't grandpa's era and food is a plenty. Food is so processed and unhealthy compared to years ago as well. So with unhealthier food and more of it available, well, you know......

Well I dont eat processed food. For dinner I had pizza. I made the dough myself from spelt flour... Bought the tomato sauce, italian of course and ecological.. plus I made it extra special with garlic and Icelandic thyme (called blóðberg, means blood rock, its good for your blood), then I put some smoked WHALE meat (what you want us to do, if we catch whale by accidents while fishing we are not making a fucking funeral for it with Liberace music and white roses, we WILL eat it), cheese (parmegiano and a type of gorgonzola) and broccoli.... It tasted amazing, plus it took some time... Beats the pizza you take out of the package and put in the oven....

Originally Posted by heidrun

So its either getting my butt to some good sex, boxing or getting back to sea I really dont want some "creamcakemuscle" like I call the muscle guys that work out. I mean getting muscle with the same motion you use to eat a snicker bar... It cant be good.

Wait a minute, I lift weights! :redface:

Well I dont, and I am probably stronger then you

Originally Posted by heidrun

I have an AU-pair now. It is a very nice german girl called SARA. I am hoping to pick some nice italian guy up on the airport.. At least they dont have pinkies and they are sexually starving. I lived there for one year (in Torino), and I "saved" a lot of guys from sexual frustration, and most of them were amazing.. sexually.

So if it's Italians you want, I think you need to plan a vacation to Italy! Quit posting and pack your bags [/quote]

No its much shorter way to drive my german friend to the airport and pick one tourists out (or two or three to make things interesting... no girls please... I guess I am not completely heterosexual, I love dick so much I must be gay ) Talking about being a kid in a candy store.... Except I dont eat candy anymore

[William Wallace]

An icelandic troll woman who eats whale meat pizza

Heidrun, I've heard some funny stuff in my life, but this might take the creamcake