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[heidrun]

Here I am confessing. Saturday I lost control, and I cheated on my food-plan. Then again on sunday and monday but I am proud to admit that I have gained control again, and have been eating exactly according to my food-plan today. Not cheating anymore and it seems I have found my right track again.

I have been contemplating over the reasons for my cheat. The only reason I can find is that I was simply very hungry in a physical way, it seemed like my body was making me eat. I know it sounds like a lame excuse but I have not felt very good the last weeks and on monday I got very sick. The symptoms are exactly as having a bad case of the flu, except I dont have a cold or sore throat with it. Just very tired, feel aches all over my body, and my skin on the left side of my body is really sore, like the pain from a cold sore. Because of becoming sick I think my body system was wanting more nutrition, therefore causing this intense physical hunger. It didnt feel that I was falling for a physical or psychological craving, but rather a very deep-rooted physical urge to get more nutrition. To get accountable for my cheating I am announcing that my current weight is 325 lbs / 147.6 kg. I know most of it is liquid in the body, since my fingers are all puffed up, cant even put my rings on (they were even gettig too wide before) and I know it can take some days or weeks to all that excess liquid out, but I have to face the fact that I put on some lbs through unhealthy eating.

I have decided that this failure is going to be used in a positive way. It will teach me that I am not flawless, that I can fail as anybody else, and it certainly has made see that I was kind of arrogant towards other people that couldnt follow their diet and had difficulties controlling their cracings. This will teach me that being arrogant about my success only makes me over-confident and therefore easier target for my own self-deception that will eventually lead to failure and will make me lose control. This will teach me how easy it is to lose control, and how difficult it is to get on the right track again. I will not use this failure to tear down my confidence in succeeding. I will not use this failure to feel unadequate and a loser. I will use this failure to see that in the end I am the winner, because besides getting off the track I got on the track again and thats whats important. The failure is not the thing that is important, overcoming the failure is whats important.

[Obesity Discussion]

I like the approach you are taking to dissect your relapse so to speak. When most people are sick they like to be nurtured and spoiled, and many (myself included) may get a false sense of this through eating. You've taken accountability for your actions which is another positive step. No one is perfect, and slipping a day or two is perfectly normal over the long haul. You've done an incredible job so far!

Have you gone to a doctor for a diagnosis? Hopefully you feel better soon, being sick is no fun

[heidrun]

Originally Posted by Obesity Discussion

I like the approach you are taking to dissect your relapse so to speak. When most people are sick they like to be nurtured and spoiled, and many (myself included) may get a false sense of this through eating. You've taken accountability for your actions which is another positive step. No one is perfect, and slipping a day or two is perfectly normal over the long haul. You've done an incredible job so far!

Have you gone to a doctor for a diagnosis? Hopefully you feel better soon, being sick is no fun

Yep I went to the doctor, they drew some blood, and I will hear from them soon. Now I feel ok, but I dont know if I am over this, it kind of comes in waves the sickness, sometimes I am better and sometimes I feel very tired and sick.

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Originally Posted by heidrun

Yep I went to the doctor, they drew some blood, and I will hear from them soon. Now I feel ok, but I dont know if I am over this, it kind of comes in waves the sickness, sometimes I am better and sometimes I feel very tired and sick.

I'm glad you are feeling better! Keep us posted on the doctor's results, and rest up in the mean time!

[heidrun]

Well here is an update. I got a call from my doctor today with the results from the analysis of my blood. I had expected a call from her tomorrow, but she called me right away and wants me to come to an appointment tomorrow because it seems that I have Hypothyroidism (when there arent produced enough hormones, so the metabolism slows down, and you gain weight).

Well that could be an good explanation why I wasnt losing weight the last one and half month despite following the program!!! When i think of it I have felt very tired and lethargic the last month and I have been experienced more hunger for food then the previous months.
I just hope that there will be a solution for this medical problem, because I sure cant hold on not losing weight month after month, despite all my hard work.

[Obesity Discussion]

Originally Posted by heidrun

Well here is an update. I got a call from my doctor today with the results from the analysis of my blood. I had expected a call from her tomorrow, but she called me right away and wants me to come to an appointment tomorrow because it seems that I have Hypothyroidism (when there arent produced enough hormones, so the metabolism slows down, and you gain weight).

Well that could be an good explanation why I wasnt losing weight the last one and half month despite following the program!!! When i think of it I have felt very tired and lethargic the last month and I have been experienced more hunger for food then the previous months.
I just hope that there will be a solution for this medical problem, because I sure cant hold on not losing weight month after month, despite all my hard work.

Thyroid problem huh? Interesting! I know someone who was able to get some medication to help them with their Hypothyroidism and they dropped pounds like I've never seen before. I bet the same will hold true for you. I'm curious as to what he will prescribe you. Keep us posted!

[William Wallace]

Originally Posted by heidrun

Well here is an update. I got a call from my doctor today with the results from the analysis of my blood. I had expected a call from her tomorrow, but she called me right away and wants me to come to an appointment tomorrow because it seems that I have Hypothyroidism (when there arent produced enough hormones, so the metabolism slows down, and you gain weight).

Well that could be an good explanation why I wasnt losing weight the last one and half month despite following the program!!! When i think of it I have felt very tired and lethargic the last month and I have been experienced more hunger for food then the previous months.
I just hope that there will be a solution for this medical problem, because I sure cant hold on not losing weight month after month, despite all my hard work.

wow, that was nice of your doctor to get back to you so soon. all of my doctors could care less about me! I would have to call them a trillion times to get an answer!!

I hope everything works out for you. Please do keep us updated on what's going on with the Hypothyroidism.

[heidrun]

The doctor put me on thyroid hormones (I think the drug is called euthyrox or something like that) then I weaning myself from two kind of drugs and getting one instead of those two (anti-depressant and anti-anxiety). I feel like shit now, very dizzy and tired and bloated. In fact I have gained 10 lbs in the last 2 days, just because of the bloating. It actually hurts when I make a fist because my fingers are so swallowed, and my legs hurt so much that it is like walking on broken glass. I am hoping this very uncomfortable situation wont last long. I have enough experience on taking new drugs to know that the side-effects will go over in matter of days or max some weeks, so its just a matter of hanging in there.

Besides all this, I feel great

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Originally Posted by heidrun

The doctor put me on thyroid hormones (I think the drug is called euthyrox or something like that) then I weaning myself from two kind of drugs and getting one instead of those two (anti-depressant and anti-anxiety). I feel like poopy now, very dizzy and tired and bloated. In fact I have gained 10 lbs in the last 2 days, just because of the bloating. It actually hurts when I make a fist because my fingers are so swallowed, and my legs hurt so much that it is like walking on broken glass. I am hoping this very uncomfortable situation wont last long. I have enough experience on taking new drugs to know that the side-effects will go over in matter of days or max some weeks, so its just a matter of hanging in there.

Besides all this, I feel great

Stay tough Heidrun!! Everything should subside in time. Did the doctor say if the medication would be temporary or permanent? What exactly is the Euthyrox supposed to do? You plan on working this week or are you going to be out of commission for a little while?

[heidrun]

I think that I will be on euthyrox as long as I need to take it. Euthyrox is a replacement for a hormone that is normally produced by the thyroid gland to regulate the body's energy and metabolism. Euthyrox is given when the thyroid does not produce enough of this hormone on its own.

I dont think I feel bad because of euthyrox, but because of the other new drug I am taking: Orfiril, it is called depacon or depakene. It is an anti-convulsion drugs but is also used for mental dissturbances.

No I am not taking days off work, dont feel sick enough

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Originally Posted by heidrun

I think that I will be on euthyrox as long as I need to take it. Euthyrox is a replacement for a hormone that is normally produced by the thyroid gland to regulate the body's energy and metabolism. Euthyrox is given when the thyroid does not produce enough of this hormone on its own.

I dont think I feel bad because of euthyrox, but because of the other new drug I am taking: Orfiril, it is called depacon or depakene. It is an anti-convulsion drugs but is also used for mental dissturbances.

No I am not taking days off work, dont feel sick enough

Very interesting. Glad you feel good enough to go to work, that would have been a double whammy to lose vacation/pay/sick time over this! Hopefully the symptoms go away soon

[William Wallace]

Heidrun, haven't heard from you in a few days; are you feeling any better? Still dealing with being bloated, dizzy and tired?

[heidrun]

Originally Posted by William Wallace

Heidrun, haven't heard from you in a few days; are you feeling any better? Still dealing with being bloated, dizzy and tired?

This last week has been extremely difficult for me. I got a cold and felt so bad that I thought it was the flu, but it was in fact the medication I was on that was making me feel very bad. I felt very groggy, extremely tired (in fact slept most of the time), depressed and broke into cold sweat by the lightest physical activity. I didnt go to work the whole week, I felt so bad and tired. I didnt even have the energy to go online, let alone write anything. I was so groggy that I couldnt follow a conversation. When I was in the kitchen I didnt close the cupboards after me, and didnt even notice that. Then yesterday I made the decision in my groggy mind that this medication (Orfiril, it was supposed to be a medication to use instead of two other mental-medications) was making me much more sicker then I would be without it, so I stopped taking it, and voilá I woke up this morning, feeling very fresh and energetic. Went to work and feel great.

When I felt so bad I didnt follow my food-program. It was simply so difficult to follow the food-program, and my depressive state made me crave all the wrong food. Well it was a slip that shows that when I am depressed I get cravings and when I feel good I can follow my food-program, simple as that. So now its just a question to keep myself in the mental state that will make me follow the food program. I followed my food-plan today, and it felt so easy because I wasnt so groggy and tired as before, so I am sure I will continue to follow it as before.

Thanks for caring about me, and be sure I am fine now, and I am up for the next round of my weight loss process.

[William Wallace]

Originally Posted by heidrun

This last week has been extremely difficult for me. I got a cold and felt so bad that I thought it was the flu, but it was in fact the medication I was on that was making me feel very bad. I felt very groggy, extremely tired (in fact slept most of the time), depressed and broke into cold sweat by the lightest physical activity. I didnt go to work the whole week, I felt so bad and tired. I didnt even have the energy to go online, let alone write anything. I was so groggy that I couldnt follow a conversation. When I was in the kitchen I didnt close the cupboards after me, and didnt even notice that. Then yesterday I made the decision in my groggy mind that this medication (Orfiril, it was supposed to be a medication to use instead of two other mental-medications) was making me much more sicker then I would be without it, so I stopped taking it, and voilá I woke up this morning, feeling very fresh and energetic. Went to work and feel great.

When I felt so bad I didnt follow my food-program. It was simply so difficult to follow the food-program, and my depressive state made me crave all the wrong food. Well it was a slip that shows that when I am depressed I get cravings and when I feel good I can follow my food-program, simple as that. So now its just a question to keep myself in the mental state that will make me follow the food program. I followed my food-plan today, and it felt so easy because I wasnt so groggy and tired as before, so I am sure I will continue to follow it as before.

Thanks for caring about me, and be sure I am fine now, and I am up for the next round of my weight loss process.

Sounds like you were a mess! Sorry to hear about all that I do not know about you, but whenever I am sick I never clean, and then once I am better I have a huge mess waiting for me :hs:

I am glad you feel better now though. As far as slipping a bit with your eating program, no one is perfect, there is no straight and narrow path, there are going to be a few kinks/bends in it on the way to the finish line, but like the old Tortoise and the Hare story...slow and steady wins the race.

[SheaGrl]

When I cheat, I try to make up for it the next day by eating super healthy. I try to undue what I did. It also helps me to know its ok to cheat sometimes. Hey, im human, i can't always be perfect.