[justme]

I spent all of last week in a work related training program which required me to drive 2 hours (one way – total 4 hours) everyday. In that time I did a lot of thinking about my current weight issues and of course work. I decided around about Thursday to try and stop thinking about work and to not check my work email at all as well. After that on my drive in on Thursday morning, while not thinking about work a work related thought popped into my head and I suddenly realized that I REALLY do not like my job and every time prior to this, over the last couple of years, when I had a good diet and exercise program going I would get upset about things at my job and the entire program would go out the window.

The reason I decided to try and not think at all about my job on Thursday morning was because on Tuesday and Wednesday I was a little upset with the training and very upset by some of my work e-mails and then on the way home I stopped and got a Milkshake on both Tuesday and Wednesday and a big container of Pringles on Wednesday as well. Also I did not do any of my morning exercises on Wednesday or Thursday.

After the “I really do NOT like my job” stuff Thursday morning I stopped for Tea on both Thursday and Friday on the way home and enjoyed it immensely and I did my exercises on Friday, Saturday and Sunday…. Well… ok not Sunday, It was hot and I mowed the lawn instead. But I did them this morning and I have had no problems with keeping to the diet either. I also had a flash of the career I think I want, but it will take some time to get there and I am not quite ready to talk about that yet.

I have known for some time I was not thrilled with my job (nothing wrong with it, it just does not fit me) and I have been reading books on finding and switching careers but I did not realize that it had such a big effect on my health before.

So I spent the weekend NOT thinking about my office and NOT looking at any work e-mail either and I had a rather wonderful weekend and I did the exercise and followed the diet and it was great. Of course I am back in my office today but for some reason knowing (and accepting) the fact that I really do not like it seems to have helped…. so far

Now why am I posting this, well to get it in writing and see if I still feel that way.. .and I do. But also to maybe help someone else that may be having a similar weight issue that cannot figure out why they cannot stick to it. Of course there can be multiple reasons and I have blamed many of them over the years but that never seemed to make a difference before but this did.

Sometimes we need to look outside of ourselves to see what the problem might be.

OK I am now sounding like some guy that has spent too much time on a mountain top reading philosophy books so I will stop now.