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Originally Posted by Lyman  Well it's been a long time since an update due to most of June being engulfed in ridiculous amounts of work and most of July seeing me in an internetless Laurentian forest, but I'm back in the flooded civilisation that is the UK and ready to become a shut-in again!
While my weight loss itself has slowed to a crawl again, I've found that my clothes get baggier and my belts demand extra holes punched into them periodically. Furthermore, I've gone from a US XL to a UK XL (for whatever reason XL is a smaller size in the UK) without the material clinging to my body and making me look like an oversized gastropod. I imagine this is due to more muscle being built up now that my activity levels are far higher. I've nearly lost all that pillowcaseyness to my upper arms and, while my thighs aren't all that 'mastered' there's definitely an increase in actual solid muscle beneath the remaining flab.
In an odd psychological thingamebob, I've found myself getting more self-conscious of my appearance as I incrementally slim down than I ever was when I was at my largest. My graduallly receding gut just seems to make my unsavoury conical man-boobs look bigger, and instead of unearthing a smouldering lothario beneath my head-fat I'm more and more concerned that my face will wind up gaunt and goofy-looking. Plus I recently saw some video footage of myself which was very disheartening:
That it's taken a year and a half of work to wind up still looking like this is quite sobering. A lot of words of congratulations from people I haven't seen in a while have perhaps gone to my head, and in a case of reverse-body dysmorphia I think I'd convinced myself I was far slimmer. Still, it's all fuel for the fire.
So all in all, that August deadline ain't gonna happen, but if I can show up to the wedding sporting a chin (singular) and a suit small enough so that it doesn't make me look like a hitman I'll be happy.
Am thinking of compiling some of my food 'recipes' and posting them up here at some point if they're of any interest
Good to be back
-L |
Welcome back to civilization!!
We missed your elloquent posts! I wouldn't focus so much on the number on the scale because it seems you are putting on a little bit of muscle, and of course muscle weighs more than fat. You seem to be dropping a size or so in clothes and looking better, which tells me you are on the right track!
I'd love for you to post up some of your recipes, we have a special forum just for members' personal recipe suggestions. I think you are more aware of your appearance partially because it keeps changing. Before the weight loss started you were probably used to the way you were. Maybe you are now holding a higher standard for yourself regarding the way you look? Who knows (maybe you do
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Be sure to wear dark sunglasses with slicked back hair while carrying a large violin case to the wedding, and post up pictures of Gangster Lyman.
