[Erin]

I've seen several psychologists over the past couple of years. They're the ones that have been recommending antidepressants. They can't tell me anything I don't already know about myself, as I'm in school to be a clinical psychologist. I know all the tricks of the trade, and in this case it works against be when it comes to getting help from someone else.

The randomly crying I can deal with... that's not why I've finally decided to concider drugs. It's more because I woke up one morning and realized that I couldn't remember when the last time was that I had a good laugh. I also couldn't remember when I last had a good time out with friends. I more or less don't feel anything anymore. I never have fun, but at the same time I don't have a bad time either. I just sort of feel numb all the time.