[SunShine]

I wish I could get myself out of this rut I am in to. I just do not want to do anything when I get up in the mornings. I drag around until the day is mostly over with and then get mad at myself for doing it.
I know I need to exercise and I try to in our pool but I canot get in it alone during the day without my husband with me because of some health problems I have. I am so big I feel miserable. I hate myself for ever getting like this. I have always been heavy but I was active and did so much and never slowed up but these last three years I have almost become imobile.
I have no desire to do things anymore. I stay in pain from my arthritis and I know that is why but I take all my medication my doctor gives me but he is so skeptic about giving me to many pain pills to take. I do feel so much better when I do thake them and I do alot more and go more to but then I run out of them and get back to hurting and can't do much at all. I have tried to explain this to him but it does no good.
Have any of you ever experienced anything like this before? why are doctors so skeptic about giving out pain medication when someone may need it in order to have a functional life of any kind.
I am 62 yrs. old and have arthritis so bad in my whole body. This goes way back in our family tree for generations. I just feel that doctors do nopt understand a person much when it comes to pain.
I know my pain is what is keeping me so depressed and I eat to because it seems to make the pain ease up for a few minutes while I am eating. I know that may sound crazy to you all but its true.
I feel I am in a no win suitation.