[LoraH]

Thanks for the welcome and posts!

I dont think I want to go as far as counting calories and things. Not at this point anyway. I am still getting used to eating healthier foods, and I know that if I cut back to what I should have to lose weight fast, then I wont stick with it. It is difficult to leave the processed stuff alone and cook our food from scratch as much as possible. So far we aren't doing too badly on this. If I get rid of everything I like that is bad for me, and only eat tiny portions of everything, I will fail. I need to get used to eating the good stuff first.

I guess my number one goal is to eat healthy, and my second goal would be losing the weight.

I am in remission from cancer, and being healthy will help keep me that way.

I dont know why weight is so hard for me to control. I have been so strong in so many things, but this is one that I just cant get a hold of in the same way. I have kicked a strong hold on cocaine, methamphetamines and oxycontin, on my own, cold turkey. And I quit the cigarettes too, as I said before. And yet a cupcake can practically bring me to my knees.

Besides the cancer mess, I have Lymphedema in my legs, Hidradenitis Suppurativa, Fibromyalgia with terrible back pain, and bi-polar disorder. And the agoraphobia. Since I cant get out without too much panic, I have to do my exercising inside. To tell the truth though, I cant do much anyway. I have a treadmill and I have some small hand weights. I use the hand weights while I am at my desk reading work stuff. I dont have any set routine that I do with them, I just do whatever moving with them that feels like it is using some muscles.

My legs are always swollen from the lymphedema, and my knees hurt terribly most of the time. Sometimes walking 25 steps on the treadmill is tough. Walking 100 steps puts me to gasping for breath, and my heart racing. I try to walk 100 steps at a time four or five times a day. Some days I cant do it. Some days I can hardly stand. Our treadmill is not an electric one, and it has a bit of an incline, so its a bit harder than a regular one.

I know that I HAVE to do more exercising. I know that the more I do, the easier it will become. I have to be stronger than I am.

I am very lucky that I dont have the typical health problems for obese persons, like high blood pressure or diabetes.

Anyway, I guess I should end this for now, before I bore everyone to tears. LOL