| Re: Last Cry!
I know allot of what you say is very true. Since I hurt my back, and have been unable to do anything, all I think about is food. I am still on allot of pain meds for my back. They don't help! Also numerous rounds of steroids. I think all the meds I am on are working against me too. It's hard to stay doing something when you think about food. Especially if you can't do very much about it. I am trying to walk more and more. The Dr. said that I would never run again like I used to. That bums me out when I think about it. I have got to try to find things that I CAN DO, and do them. I feel like I am trapped inside of something that I cannot get out of. I don't think, walk, talk, or as most people say even act like myself. Sometimes I just wish I could just bust out of this shell, and go back to being me. I don't even know who I am anymore. Allot of mixed feelings lately. Everywhere you turn in America there is food. Food for every occasion, no matter what. Every holiday is around the dinner table. Sometimes I just want to plug up my ears, close my eyes, and just block it all out. I think I am going to have to train my mind more than my body. If only I could keep the mind occupied, I would be in great shape. |