[pinkdaisy]

Hey everyone.
I'm new to the website (and forums in general). I'm here looking to share stories and hopefully get some inspiration!

I'm 24 years old and I've struggled with weight my entire life. They say you hit rock bottom before you can pull yourself out, and I think I've hit it. I've never felt so unhealthy in my life. I've weighed in at close to 300 lbs now, my energy is zapped (I come home from work and I crash), I'm embarrassed to see family and friends that I haven't seen for a while because I'm afraid what they'll think. I just feel so uncomfortable in my own skin. I live on my own now, so it has been even harder to stick to a healthy diet (I have no one watching me!) The only good thing I've got going for my health right now is that I've recently joined a gym - I'm trying to go more often (so far, it's been 1-2 times a week).

Not trying to self-diagnose here, but I feel like I've developed an addiction or dependency to certain foods. I know they're terrible for me, but I can't help it - I crave carbs (potatoes, pasta, rice) and I rarely eat vegetables (some fruit, but not enough). I always regret after I've eaten this stuff, and it consumes my thoughts.

If anyone has any experience with food addiction, or ideas for how to deal with this, I would love to hear from you.

Wow, what an introduction - sorry for the essay! - it felt good to vent - thanks for reading!