It was weigh-in time last night and I managed to lose another pound this week.
I don't know how I managed it, as I've spent the last few days eating nothing but rubbish!
I got one of my headaches, which started around Wednesday. I haven't had one this bad for a very long time and was out of my medication. Painkillers alone are not enough when I get one of my really bad heads. Normally a good rest in the dark and quiet is enough to lift it, but not this time. This one decided it wanted some company and to stay a while. Lucky me(!)
For good measure, on Friday I started my period, so that was a double whammy. I held out as long as I could, then I succumbed to the chocolate. It made me feel better for a little while (not nearly long enough), enough so that I didn't have to cancel my dinner plans. I was invited to my friend Mary's for dinner, along with other members of the choir I sing with. It was a very pleasant evening with good conversation. To be honest, it was over too soon. However, I felt really hungry on the way home and almost swung by the chippy. I managed to talk myself out of it, although it didn't stop me from stuffing my face when I got in the door. Of course, I reached for the chocolate again. Trouble was, I didn't have any proper chocolate in the house, so I ended up eating some out-of-date chocolate biscuits I had lurking in a forgotten corner of my kitchen cupboard. They weren't very nice, but the chocolate made me feel a bit better again for a while.
The binge didn't stop there, of course. On Saturday I started the day with my usual resolve, but by lunch time it had evaporated. I had to collect a prescription that I'd got from the doctor on Friday (for my headache) and this was the perfect excuse to stock up on goodies (or baddies, depending on your viewpoint). I bought a load of party food from Iceland, along with a load of chocolate. I was in 'f*ck it' mode, so I went a little crazy.
I spent Saturday evening stuffing my face with breaded chicken goujons and breaded prawns, which were absolutely wonderful. I also had pork loin with cauliflower and sausages with sweet chilli sauce. And then I had a few bars of chocolate for good measure. I'm never one to do things by halves.
Sunday was more of the same. I didn't even kid myself I was going to try and eat properly. I started off with 4 slices of toast and butter (butter... mmm...), then I fired up the oven and cooked some mini veggie spring rolls (last of the party food). I also grilled a few pork loin chops and more sausages. When those were all gone I ate a 150g bag of honey-roasted peanuts and more chocolate.
Needless to say, I didn't think I was going to have a weigh loss this week - far from it! I thought I was going to put on at least 5lbs, maybe more. Imagine my surprise when I lost 1lb. I think this was due to the fact that I wasn't in work on Monday, because that headache of mine was still in full throb, so I called in sick. I slept for the majority of the day and didn't eat before my weigh-in. If I had, I don't think I would've had a weight loss at all, so it was a bit of a false reading. But, hey, after the weekend I had I'll take it any way it comes!
Unfortunately, I wasn't quite done with my junk food binge. On the way home from slimming class I swung by the chippy and bought a fish supper. It was superb! I had a couple of chocolate bars for dessert, then went to my T'ai Chi class. The class was immensely relaxing and I felt a whole lot better afterwards. I was very glad that I decided to go. Having missed a class a couple of weeks ago, I don't want to miss any more, as I feel I'm behind everyone else. I won't be there next week, as my slimming class is having a Christmas night out that night. It's the last class of term, so I can start again in the New Year with everyone else and hopefully catch up on what I missed.
When I got home last night I ate more chocolate. It is so much better than painkillers. It's a shame it's so calorific. Never mind. Today I'm going to try and be good and stay away from sugar and fat. That being said, I'm having lunch with my cousin, so it might not happen. It depends on where we end up for lunch. We used to frequent a Brewer's Fayre pub where I always ordered the grilled fillet of salmon with prawn skewer and baked potato. However, they were taken over in the summer and they changed the menu, so now the low-fat options are virtually non-existent, which is a real bummer. Last month we ended up in an Indian restaurant, which is the worst thing for fat (all that ghee). I do love Indian food, though.
Anyway, we'll see how this week goes and whether or not I'll pay for my over-indulgence on the scales next week. I'll keep my fingers crossed that I get away with it and resolve to do better this week.
