[alliecat]

Hi everyone, I am hoping I have found hope. I have been in a struggle with my weight for so long. I don't drink, smoke, or even drink coffee, but I love, love, love the sugar. Long story short it is killing me literally. I have been up and down on the scale for years. This time I can't seem to go down. I had lap band surgery in 2006 and lost about 60lbs but I have gained all but 10 lbs back. I now have medical issues I blame on my eating habits which are diverticulosis, have had two bad infections since June of 2007 (diverticulitis), I have severe arthritis in my left knee, ankle problems and I feel depressed. There has got to be a way out of this yo yo, weight hell. I feel I can't take it any more. I have motavation. I walk with Leslie Sansone once a day for now at 1 - 2 miles a day. My eating habits are still a mess. I am confused on if I should eat 6xs a day or just 3. grazing gets me into trouble. The less I have to think about food the better. I am not sure what calorie intake I should be on either. My lap band hasn't been a success for me. Everything I eat gets stuck, so I stick to easy to go down foods like sugar. Yeah that goes down great. I have had fills and unfills. I realize it is just a tool. I wanted a miricle. I am starting to see there are no quick fixes and I need to do this myself. I am hoping support from people with the same struggles and solutions can give me the help I need to stick to it. I am sick of my life revolving around sugar. I want to be healthy. Not skinny, thin, but healthy. I am open for suggestions. Thank you. Allie