I just wanted to introduce myself and let everyone know a little about me...
I've struggled with weight problems my entire life. I was an overweight little kid, and an overweight teenager. I'm now 5'6" and 228 lbs. I am VERY large boned *huge hips and ribcage/shoulders* but I don't use that as a crutch in explaining away my weight...I just know once I get to a certain weight, I'm going to look weird...almost too bony.
I weighed the same as my mom by 8th grade, and was terribly ashamed. She tried helping me lose weight all through middle school because I was getting very rotund. I lost probably 30 pounds back then, and put it back on at the beginning of high school. I'm a very emotional eater, and I put weight on super easily, and never have lost easily.
My Junior year I reached my highest weight ever up to that point at 220 lbs. I was in a very immature and unhealthy relationship, and began to not eat. I struggled with Anorexia for 4 months, in which time I lost approximately 50 pounds. I finally snapped out of it, but have never really kicked the habit completely, and there are days I just won't eat for half of it because I'm determined I'm going to lose weight...for a LONG time I believed that was the only way to lose weight for me...
NOW however, I know what is healthy, and have really tried a couple times in the last few months to eat healthily, and failed miserably. I'm in a committed relationship with a wonderful guy, and I'm so miserable it's ridiculous! When we started dating I weighed 180 lbs, and now weigh 220 lbs 3 years later. It's horribly horrible, and I feel gross, and unhealthy.
I really enjoy swimming, and I'm really good at it so I'm planning on starting swimming 3x/week. My boyfriend said he'd go with me so I have a swimming partner. Eating healthy is going to be very hard though. I eat out a lot because I'm all over the place most of the time, but I'm hoping to be able to curb that habit and make meals ahead of time (for example, today I made some "sloppy joe's" with ground turkey, but I won't finish it all for a week!).
So...the problem I always come across is giving up. I always find myself saying, oh one order of french fries won't kill me...ice cream won't kill me...and it slowly tapers into no diet at all. My boyfriend points it out every once in a while, and I get defensive and bitter...It's horrible but true! Hopefully I'll be able to keep myself in check. I'm using the online food journal called FitDay.
So...this is my weight loss journey so far...I hope to be able to lose the weight and keep it off. Any help, advice, experience likenesses, anything, let me know! I need help from people who understand.
Sorry for the long intro, want to be completely honest with everyone, including myself
