Thanks for the positive notes so far. They are helping me keep my head up. Trying not to get too negative about my work/sleep issue. Trying to work around that. Just been super exhausted since I got an infection last year that wiped me out for 2 months straight. I ended up gaining 30 lbs after working really hard to get it off. I figure I wasn't eating enough of the right foods and is what probably did me in. I notice that sleeping seems to play a major role on my outlook. no sleep = cranky negative me. Sleep = me on top of world an motivated all day long.
As for my work I have already told them when I come back from sabbatical I don't intend to keep working nights. In so many words my manager said well it would suck to loose you... Large corporation = heartless.
At this point in my life I'm just tired of sleeping my life away and not being able to do things when I'm awake at night. I feel bad if I'm making noise in the house when my wife is sleeping.
I tried to go to bed early last night to wake up early to actually get something done. Slept from 1am-4am. Got out of bed at around 5am. Stayed up until 10am and then finally tanked out again until 5:30.
Makes me feel bad I wasted my only Saturday off. I get every other Saturday off with my schedule.
I'll be up all night tonight and sleep tomorrow away before work. Which isn't too bad. Would just be nice to have enough energy to motivate myself and my wife. She is in need of motivation and wants to loose the weight she's gained as well.
I figure she has about 20 to loose while I have my 100. We're both very unmotivated at this point. So I'm trying to be the motivator.
Just when I don't sleep it's hard to get up and say lets go to the gym... woo hoo ready to go.